OleanderDali: i’m really discouraged with rowing.
OleanderDali: today he gave us new lineups for the boat and there’s 5 boats… only three can race
OleanderDali: i’m not in a racing boat.
OleanderDali: soooo….
OleanderDali: basically this entire year of practice is going to be for nothing
OleanderDali: all the 6 foot friggin amazon girls are racing
OleanderDali: i mean i really have zero incentive to get up at 5 in the morning everyday and waste every saturday and listen to his bitching.
OleanderDali: it just really sucks. 
OleanderDali: i don’t want to quit… yet i feel like i’m working my ass off and not getting anything out of it
OleanderDali: i mean imagine band camp and then not competing.
bartokman37: hmmm
OleanderDali: all that practice… and then nothing.
bartokman37: yeah
bartokman37: well
bartokman37: okay
bartokman37: that’s dumb
OleanderDali: yep
bartokman37: you should quit!
bartokman37: like i always say!
bartokman37: quiiiit!
bartokman37:
OleanderDali: lol
OleanderDali: i just wish i could compete!  there’s like 20 girls who are screwed out of fun
OleanderDali: well no more like 30
OleanderDali: and the three top boats get to go out on the water everyday
OleanderDali: while we are doing weight training and running up the stadium steps
OleanderDali: it’s just like what the hell
bartokman37: hmm
bartokman37: yeah
bartokman37: there’s nothing else for you guys to do?
bartokman37: no like, little people competition?
bartokman37: lol
OleanderDali: nope, we only have three boats for girls competition
OleanderDali: and three for guys
OleanderDali: so… yep
OleanderDali: and there’s a trip to tampa this xmas break
OleanderDali: ONLY the three boats get to go
OleanderDali: it’s just… really… not.. fair
OleanderDali: we are working just as hard… actually harder.  you don’t see them running up the stadium
OleanderDali: and it’s like he’s given up on us.  we hardly ever go out on the water and when we do he just gripes the whole time
OleanderDali: WELL what does he expect if he doesn’t train us
OleanderDali: we’ve been out on the water like three times total
OleanderDali: the other group goes out every single day
OleanderDali: GEE i wonder why they know what they’re doing more than us
OleanderDali: solely because they are taller
OleanderDali: SOLELY
OleanderDali: it’s so stupid!
OleanderDali: some of us are stronger… in fact a lot of us are stronger than those girls
OleanderDali: but our legs aren’t as long so we physically can’t row as large as a stroke each time
OleanderDali: it’s just so incredibly frustrating
OleanderDali: all of us are talking about it and upset.  we’ve mentioned it to him and he’s just so pissy all the time anyway and so damned stubborn it doesn’t do any good at all
OleanderDali: …anyway sorry.  i haven’t vented to anyone besides the other rowing girls and it’s really getting to me
OleanderDali: it’s all for nothing.
bartokman37: hmmmm
OleanderDali: and yet he’s so damned vague he keeps giving us false hope that we’ll race the next time, and then he says the top three are going again
OleanderDali: or the top two
bartokman37: well yeah
bartokman37: sounds like what coaches do sometimes
bartokman37: quit!
bartokman37:
bartokman37: yeeep.
OleanderDali: sigh. 
bartokman37: how’s non rowing life?
OleanderDali: well classes suck cause i keep sleeping past them.  …cause of rowing!  lol.
bartokman37: mhm
OleanderDali: josh, one of jeremiah’s apartment-mates, texted me happy birthday.  it… really sucks that jeremiah didn’t even say happy birthday.  i mean obviously josh had to have gotten my number from him and he probably only did it to be nice on jeremiah’s behalf, you know? 
OleanderDali: so that hurts.  i figured he would at least text or something.
OleanderDali: he definitely knew when it was, especially since even his apartment mates knew.
OleanderDali: whatever.
OleanderDali: i really liked him and he definitely took a 180 and sorta broke my heart.  buuut that’s my love life.