October 16, 2006

  • I AM SO STRESSED OUT!!!  God!!!  I did get a lot filled out today... but still... never...ending... scholarship essays.. NEVER FUCKING ENDING!  literally!  it will continue for the rest of the year.. deadline.. after deadline.. after deadline.. about a week in between.  I HATE IT!  I probably won't even WIN any.  Actually, I think I have a pretty good shot at this Sweet 16 thing.  But honestly, bleck.  My optimism is running very... very.. low.  I can't talk to Brit about it because she just doesn't get it.  Money stress is not a problem for her.  I talk to Jacky about it but I'm sure she, just as anyone else, would get tired of hearing my problems again and again.. same crap.  WHO IS POOR LIKE ME??  Wanna chat??  About college?!?  COMPLAIN TOGETHER??!!  *sigh*.  Okay.. I'll make a to-do list...

    Yet to do:

    Purdue application/fee
    Butler application NO FEE
    IPFW application/fee
    Horatio scholarship/wadkins recommendation
    Holland/Hudson scholarship
    Coca-cola scholarship
    Sweet 16 scholarship
    Zaadz scholarship
    Elk Lodge scholarship
    Talbot scholarship
    SAT in Jan.
    ACT in Dec.


    crap.  i'm missing 5 scholarships.  I can't find them written down anywhere!!  shit shit shit..

    okay well.. that's not ...so......bad.  I have essays to write for Butler.  That's not due til January I think.  The scholarships are due by November 15th is the latest.  God I have to do that Hudson one tonight.  Many essays.  Horatio tomorrow.  I don't remember what that is.  My god I'm going to lose my mind.  I have honors physics hw due Wednesday at 10pm.  I don't understand any of it.  Lots of questions.  I have a quiz in psych tomorrow.  I'm so behind on note-taking for that class I could cry.  Test in music theory later this week.  I haven't even memorized the methods yet.  Essay due for comp.. i don't remember what that is.  I think it's not for the portfolio.. i think... shit i don't remember.  I just need.... a break!  but I won't get one.  not for many months.  I wonder when they'll start allowing us to sell raffle tickets for band.. I have to sell $930 worth of them.  HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHHAHHAHAHHAHHAHAHHA *explodes*