January 20, 2010
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I hate to admit it, but having a nice… guy… who truly cares.. would be great. Someone with whom I can share what goes on during my day… talk about my jobs or classes… do homework together, eat together… have a consistency in my life that could balance all the madness of my schedule… a best friend who can make you laugh and love you.
BUT in my experience,
If you’re bold, guys seem to take that as pushy or slutty.
If you’re intelligent, guys seem to take that as intimidating or controlling.
If you’re attractive, guys seem to take that as slutty or ditsy.
If you’re ambitious, guys seem to take that as controlling or bitchy.
I mean really I can’t win. I’ve tried shy guys, older guys, horny guys, intelligent guys, funny guys… a combination… nothing! Nothing. I am continuously rejected. So it must be me. Right? 5 jobs, 18 credit hours, horribly busy, organized… I assume guys just don’t dig that. I have a crap load of guy FRIENDS and they all say I’m like “one of the guys” and how “hot” I am. That’s about it. That’s my guy response summed up right there. Hot and like a guy. Mm.
I mean lots of other things are going very well in my life… so I really can’t complain… but this part of my life seems to pull on the heart strings a bit more than I would like it to. …anyway… that’s the end of the venting session.
