You Are Surrealism

Dreamy and idealistic, you've created a world that is all your own. It's very likely that you've either dabbled in drugs or are naturally trippy. You are always trying to push beyond the boundaries of your culture and society. You believe that art, love, and freedom can change the world.

Well that's cool.  No wonder I adore Dali eh?    Naturally trippy.. lol.. suuuure...

SO I'm eh.. 18 now!  Yaay... and according to this death clock only 1,931,064,082 seconds to live!... 81... 80...  I think that's like 60 years or something.... ... anyway!  Imagine the year 2067.  over half a century from now.  Hm.  Well I'm bored.  Practiced my flute some.  Tryouts didn't go to well for orchestra.  I'll have to redo that.  I want to start painting.  I'd had that desire for a while now... I'm getting a little sick of charcoal.  Yay it's a face!... and another!  ... it's starting to get creepy... hanging them all on my bedroom wall... I'm not very happy with them anymore anyway.  they're not good enough.  SO why not try something new.  though painting is very expensive... and i'd waste so much crap just trying out the art.  But man, it'd be fun.  Hm well I'm babbling. 

What's new in my life:  Weeeeell... I'm kinda becoming teacher's pet in christophersen's class.. lol... I guess that's good.  She's cool.    I'm getting just a WEE bit sick of high school.  Aw man.  esp. band.  God the practices just draaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaag on.  Competitions rock as always... but even the practicing on competition days just sucks.  I didn't used to mind it this much.  Man.  I'm so ready for college.  Too bad it isn't even 2007 yet.  -_-  I still don't know where I'm going.  I have to apply this coming wednesday to Butler, IPFW, Purdue, and IU.  If I go to Purdue or IU, I'll be equally deliriously happy.  (Well, no... IU a little happier.)  Turns out, Purdue has preeetty good courses if I want to become a psychiatrist.  I haven't a clue what the campus looks like, though.  Oh well.  Probably not as pretty as IU...  Whatever is cheaper.  IPFW meck.  I don't want to go there!!!!  I shouldn't even apply... lol.  Just.. burn the place down.  "Oh... it... burnt down?  I wonder how that happened...."  MUAHA!  ... now watch.  It'll burn down.  And the FBI will find this entry and take me in as a suspect.  ...Aaaanyway.  So I had the weirdest dream last night. 

I was in this REEEALLY old toy factory.  It was like a giant house... only turned into a factory.  Must've been hundreds of years old.  The thing's roof was falling down.. floors were falling out from under me... anyway.  The toys must've been from the 1900's or so.  At night, they would all come alive.  And I was trapped in this house.  It was so crowded and dark and old and dusty and moldy and creepy that I couldn't find my way out.  I was in the factory/house with ... 5? other people.  They were killed one by one.  I think I was the only one to survive.  I finally got out.  I remember seeing.. lots of... blood....  Now when I take courses in deciphering dreams in college, I'll have to find out what that means.

I think I'll start a dream journal.  Yes.  That is my bday gift to me.   

Well, I went on a job shadow in the psych. ward at St. Joseph's.  It was interesting.  I learned a lot.  I know am positive I want to be a Psychiatrist (M.D.), not Psychologist (Ph.D.) or Therapist (M.S.).  Therapists just talk to people with everyday problems.  They earn around $45,000 a year.  Psychologists talk to people with everyday problems a little less and do more research-based testing and such.  They earn around $63,000 a year.  Psychiatrists hardly ever talk to anybody unless it's a half hour consultation about the medication the patient is taking, so the Psychiatrist mainly just works with meds and mental disorders -- never everyday problems.  They earn around $146,000 a year.  If I decide I don't want to go to med school to get my M.D., then I'll just get my Ph.D. and stick to being a psychologist.  I know therapist is definitely out, though.  However, after I get my B.S., I can be part of the Assessment Team for admitting patients and for leading group therapy sessions such as an A.A. meeting.  After I get my M.S., I can be a Therapist.  After that, a Psychologist.  After that, finally a Psychiatrist.  Yay!  lol.  I be happy now. 

"Imperfection is beauty. Madness is genius. And it's better to be absolutely ridiculous than absolutely stupid."  -Marilyn Monroe

So in AP Comp, we took a practice AP test.  I would've gotten a 5.    I'm happy. 

Anyway!  I keep forgetting to share that tidbit of news.  I'm finally starting to do soemthing for that Wells Scholarship.  I'm such a procrastinator.  Eek.  I hate that word.  I just made a giant summary of my life for Wadkins.  He wants that to make the best recommendation for me that he possibly can.    yay Waddy!  And, by writing that, I now know what to write for part of the essay on why I want to major in Psychology.  yay.  In other news, I went on ANOTHER shopping spree today.  My dad spent $300 on my for my b-day.  I have so many clothes I don't know what to do.  And he said he's going to be there for senior night for band.    Yaaay.  My grandma is having issues... she's still fighting the fact her independence is gone.  And I am behind on hw. 

"No wonder you're such a stellar student." - Mrs. Christophersen to me!  In front of the whole class.  oh yes.  hehe 

Wow... what a few days this has been.  Okay well, here's a summary:

Saturday: went to Daleville (near Muncie)... trying to talk my grandma into going into assisted living.  she claims she can take care of herself.  she can't.  doctor's orders.  see my aunt for the first time in ... a decade?  she's cool.

Sunday: lots of SHOPPING!!!  My aunt spent about $800 on me at the Buckle and American Eagle and Macy's.  tehehehe...  hotzzzz

Monday: out to movie with Brit and Greg.  saw the Wickerman.  haha, man what a movie.  Brit and I were laughing through most of it.  females ruling an island.. aw man.  now that is what i'm talkin' about.  just use men for slaves and sacrifices.  hehe... i wonder why Greg didn't care for that movie much. 

Tuesday: got out of school early.  went back to Daleville.  ended up spending a looooooooooooong time in the emergency room.  Grandma stayed there overnight.. tomorrow she'll go into assisted living.  we think we (with the doctors and nurses' help) finally made her realize she can't go back to Florida.  got back home around 2am.

Today: skipped school.  just went to band.  apparently i've missed a lot of hw.  joy.  And now here i am going to bed late again.  *sigh*

"Oooh!  My leg!!!!"  - Nicholas Cage in the Wickerman when the women broke them.  you could just hear his voice.. not see it happening.  haha... "oh my leg!" come on...

PS so since my grandma won't be needing her car anymore... guess who gets it?  yeah.  yeah that'd be me.    I be happy.  it's a white crown victoria.. like a cop car.. but whatever.  it's a luxury car, so it's comfy.  aand it was taken car of... aand it's a 2000-something.... aaand it'll be dependable.    I won't get it til the end of the year, but hey, that's alright.

Hola.  Wow what a day.  Okay so...

Went to Daleville (over by Muncie).  My grandmother has dementia... has for some time now.  Now she's not allowed to drive anymore.  So, something has to be done.  Obviously she's being... stubborn is an understatement... but yes, very stubborn about going into assisted living.  We (my mom, Aunt Robbie, Al my grandma's bf, and I)  dont' know what to do.  Spent the whole day trying to come up with a decision.  No such luck.  We're supposed to meet again next week.  Aaah very stressful.  Seeing my aunt was very odd.  She's so much.. calmer than I remember her.  And not so eh.. bitchy lol.  She's so much older!  holy crap.  It was.. a shock.  But you know, it was nice to see her again.  We're all going to keep in touch now.  We'll see how things go...

Other than that, I'm still seeing my dad.  That's okay.  We have found out we have a lot in common.  One thing that surprised me is that he writes poetry.  We're going to share ours with each other!  lol... although ahahhaa.  His are mostly .... erotica?  lol hahaha.. aww man.  And he told me this during dinner at Olive Garden.  lol, he recited a few lines that he remembered.  Haha, wow.  I was laughing so hard.  I'm not allowed to share them with my friends!  lol, so sorry. 

On a side note... "I like 'eem" is my favorite quote of the week.  By myself of course.  Guess who "eem" is?!?!  Yeah that'd be Dan.  *ahem* 

"Sex is like math: you add the bed, subtract the clothes, divide the legs and pray you dont multiply!" - Jacky's away message lol

Today's practice rocked.  RAIN!!!!  I love rain.  Lots of choreography. 

So anyway, during practice I noticed Evan called me.  I just got off the phone from him.  God we talked for two hours.  ...!!!  hw!  aah!  'Least I don't have much.  I was so happy to hear from him!  hehe.  He's not coming to Ft. Wayne til October for his brother's wedding... if he'll even get to visit much then anyway.  And he'll come up in November.  And he said he's putting me at the top of his list of people he can call when he goes to Iraq for 6 months.  He'd better be careful... 

Well, I ought to get started on hw soon.  Aaand I need to start filling things out for that Wells Scholarship... at some point.  Mm.  Yes.  Bye bye!

"When you're with me
I feel sunshine
Even when I'm standing in the rain"  -  Bobby Sherman

So I had a pretty darn long entry yesterday.  Shame my computer froze. 

I love AP Psych!  Love it love it love it.  I'm very obsessive compulsive about my psych notes.  They are extremelly organized.    Aaah I love it.  Anyway!  So first I gots orchestra of course.  Then AP Comp, which is a little frightening.  The book we're reading right now (Angela's Ashes) is very good.  Then off to honors physics.  I already don't have a clue what is going on in that class.  I think I'm the only one in my class who didn't take chem... so he is "reviewing" on things i've never learned.  Fun.  Then French V.  Apparently we'll have hw this year.  That's alright with me.  I want to remember how to speak french again!  Then my ap psych.    Decker's an awesome teacher, too.  Iiiii'm going to love that class.  Then lunch.  I was going to switch every other day between Logy's table and Jacky's table.... but I think I'll stick with Jacky's.  I feel a bit out of place at Logy's.  Maybe I'll just drag he and Andy with me.  Then music theory... which is interesting.  Haven't done a thing yet.  We have a book that Dr. T apparently wrote.  He's a cool guy, so that class shouldn't be so bad.  And I really do want to learn more about music.  Then band of course. 

This weekend... had the game on Friday.  Saw Dan there.  I haven't seen him in such a long time!  We hugged hello and goodbye... caught up on each other's news.  I didn't realize how much I missed him!  hehe.  Well, hopefully we'll get to talking more often.  Saturday, me and the senior flute gang went all over Ft. Wayne gathering things for our bead necklaces, goods bags, ribbons, and guy flute stuff.  Then to Leslie's house to make it all.  God... I never want to see another bead for the rest of my life.  I chose hearts for my beads.  Leslie has a cylinder-type shiny bead, Laura has some cool aqua rock beads, Nicole diamond-like stripped/shiny beads, Ricky sports balls hehe, Courtney glittery balls, Francesca smiley faces, Stephane charm-like/dangly beads, Stacy marble balls... and Stef Rumsey and Stef Walker still have to pick theirs.  For the rest of the weekend.. I just talked to Jacky some.. Joey some.. and did a crap load of hw.

"I think I intimidate them to death or am just too much of a hassle to try to get." - Me sharing thoughts on my guy situation

So band camp is almost over... forever!!  I'm almost sad.    The season will go by so quickly.  Senior year has almost begun!  AAAHH!!  So I got my school supplies.  Something I'll be doing every other year for about another decade.  Still haven't gone around to get carwash money.  Eeeeeh I'll do it tomorrow... Mm yes.  I've been watching LOTS of "Family Guy" hehe.  I'm glad the library carries it.  Yay for free entertainment.  I'm kinda dreading AP Comp.  Mmm.  Yeah.  And that lovely 10,000 word biography on myself for AP Psych... or however long it is.  And I'll have to add a job to that.  Along with band.  OH FUN...!  0_0  I just can't wait.  I believe I definitely will get a car.  It's just a matter of time.  Although I haven't talked to my dad for a while now.. hmmm... I have to pay for insurance for it.  That should be fun.  Along with gas money.  For the grand am... it's supposed to be $50 a month to insure me.  Sooo it should be less on a much.... MUCH crappier, older car I assume.  I shall see.  And now I'm off to play the Sims2.

"And that's Shane back there.  She... er I mean he -- *burst of laughter*" - Mr. Barber fumbling his words on the first day of band camp.  hehehe...

Yay boredom!  -_-  *sigh*

I don't wanna go to band i don't wanna go to band i don't wanna go to band i don't wann go to band i wdon't wanna go to badn i don t'a wanna og=wsoijdflskjflwfoiwjlkjf.... yeah.

Like my new flashy toys???    Cooom' on.  You know you love them.  You're a flashy toy whore and you know it.  Yeah baby. 

My hair is cute!  I couldn't quite get that style afterall.  My hair isn't thick enough.  BUT I have a ton of layers... it's a bit shorter than I wanted, but that's alright.  It's cute.    My day with my dad was alright.  Kinda fun, actually.  He's not exactly the typical fatherly type, but oh well.  He's more like a grown pal or something.  Like... when it comes to money, he's usually okay with that.  When it comes to... going to a band competition or orchestra concert, etc... not so keen.  Maybe that'll change at some point.  I now have a membership at the Y, though!!!  hehehe.  ... though when I'll ever be able to go there is a mystery.  Brit's gone.  Yay Florida.  I'm taking care of their house stuff while they're gone.  I get $25 for it, too.  Muaha.  I'm getting addicted to my 007 gamecube game.  Hehehe... shoot... die... I'm getting pretty good at it again.  94 people in 20 mins... not so bad.  Although I do die a lot.  Got my AP test results back.  ... one I'll have no comment.  I actually got a 3 on the ap gov one.  ha... haaahaha.  I BSed that entire thing.  Oh well!  Got what I wanted lol...  Is it a bad thing if you think you forgot to put a code to your multiple choice packet on your answer sheet for an ap test?  ... yeeeeeeeeeah...  That could very well explain my result.  Which shall remain anonymous.  Because there's no way.. honestly.. no way I could've done that badly.  I knew what I was talking about on like...everything!  Aww man.  Especially my essays.  They totally kicked ass.  *sigh*  I don't have that money to send for a copy.  .... sooooo... I don't know what I'm going to do.  I guess just... say... oh well.  I'm a wee bit POed about that.  Anyway...  ummmmm... yeah so I guess I'm off to ... find something to do.  Hm.

"Oh, we're passing a church!  *Ommmmmmmm....*"  - my dad lol...