I'm procrastinating!  During spring break it's allowed, though... right?  I reeeeally need to clean poor little nimo's cage.  Well... okay so it really isn't that bad.  But would you want to stare at your own poop?  No.  Aaand I have to finish reading Macbeth...finish this packet...aaand write an essay.  Oh, and read Heart of Darkness... mm.  yay.  I've just been playing the Sims2 all day.  Yes, very productive I know.  I made Johnny Depp!!!  lol.  It looks a lot like him.  I made a sim like he looked in "Secret Window".  Not bad, if I do say so myself.  And I just made some little blonde chicka to be his wife.  And generated a baby.  The babies are so cuuute!!  And so are some of the toddlers.  Hehehe.  I want one!  So if you just leave your name and number in a comment, I'll get back to ya... lol.  Hm I want to play pool.  Maybe I should play someone easy to up my score and make myself feel better when I get creamed every night lol.  Well, I'm not that bad I guess.  ...

PS:  I love my xanga!!!  hehehe

"Then the liars and swearers are fools, for there are liars and swearers enough to beat the honest men and hang up them." - Macbeth     

hm... still trying to get used to my new layout.  I don't think i quite like how i've organized things... i have to.. scroll down to sign in.  not right.  lol.  aaaand my mouse pointer turns into a diagonal resizer whenever i click on links.  also not right.  i've gone wrong somewhere.  -_- that is soooo going to be fixed a year from now. 

guess what I've been doing today??  HOMEWORK!  lol.  sad eh?  well, i'll love myself later, though.  I've been reading Macbeth and filling out this packet along with it.  fun stuff.  I have two more acts to go. 

oh yay lookey nathan signed on.  guess he didn't go to michael's.  either that or they get just about as bored as brit and I do during sleepovers and ended up signing online.  hm she's supposed to get back tonight.  yay!  too bad i'm grounded.  yes.  grounded.  i spoke my mind about my father to my mother and she threw a tantrum as expected.  YEEEP.  oh well whatever. 

went to barnes and noble today.  spent about an hour looking through college books.  you know... i really don't know where quigley gets that butler and manchester and IPFW are so much better with fed. aid than IU.  caaause... according to like.. everything i read.. books by princeton and that one "b" one .. reputable sources in other words.. pretty much say that IU is my best bet for the price and education.  I mean... okay so 98% of butler's students receive fed. aid of somesort and only 20-some% of IU receive some.  considering the population of each is a major difference.. aaand that the price of butler is about double that of IU... i mean lol... really, IU is almost a better deal.  I just hope I can be part of that 20%.  yeeah... .well, i'll see. 

anyhoooo... i stuppose i'm going to virtually poke jacky and jabber til around 2am... then head to bed.  yay bed! 

"CATCH ME MONKIIIIIIIEEEEEEEEEEESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS " - Jacky's away message, lol...

Hmmm... well I can't seem to figure out how to make the text box bigger.  Anybody know?  I like this theme, though.    Eh?  Eeeh?  Took me like 3 frickin' hrs. to make it.  Make it yes.  I used the background from blogthings and went to work on the codes.  Hm I'm thirsty.  AAHH!!  FAMILY GUY!!!  *glues self to TV* 

"Hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm..."  Me all through "King Kong".  Is the hero guy cute or not?  Really starting to grow on me.

Okay... so I'm trying out new xanga looks.  I'm not coming across anything I really like... SO I might change this 100 times.  If you could find anything that looks better than the oleander background i already have.. lemme know.  UNTIL then I'll continue my search.  God what a wasted day.

Ah, good day.  Did nothing of importance in every single class.  In orchestra, we did a run-though of our music and had free time for the rest of it.  So, I just went to the band room and talked to Brennen, Alex, and Ann for 10 minutes or so.  2nd AP Gov.. hehe we did a mock trial.  It was fun!  I played the plaintiff who was this kid who made a "disruptive" speech and offended the school.  The school suspended her and so she sued, saying it was a violation of the First Amendment.  'Twas fun being the bad girl!  lol.  But I lost; oh well.  Econ.. just read a newspaper and got extra credit.  AP lit was the "coffee house" which was pretty cool.  Lots of sweets, coffee, hot chocolate, and poetry!  hehe.  During lunch, Logy made me a "recom^{x 2}ended" movie list.  lol.  I shall rent Donnie Darko this spring.  Yeah yeah, still haven't seen it.  I know...  Math was... good as always.    ahem.  Aaand french was just a movie.  Band was just a run-through.  Yay for my day!

I need to get a new theme for this.. Logy's attempting to help me find something cool, but his idea and my idea of cool are nooot quite the same lol.  I shall spend the rest of today looking through blog websites.  *sigh*  I have a feeling I'm never going to find what I want.  I want something that looks like it's a hand-written diary with pictures and flowers drawn in pen and stuff like that.  SO if you find it, gimme!    Until then, so long.  OH and yaaay happy spring break yaaay yay!  yay yay yay!  yaaaaay!  "wee-hoo!"  yaa--*trips*...

"Not like I want to see you..."  -  anonymous hehehe

Teehee... I have a secret!  lol, well okay, not a a secret anymore.  Let's just say I found a reason to like math class now lol.    And as a side note, y'all should get a facebook.  It's just this giant profile... aand it's quite popular.  No online journal, so you can still keep xanga!  Yes yes.  Not that I ever write much of any significance anyway.  Hm let's see.  Nimo is cute!  ...lol.  She finally figured out today how to go under the door to get to the rest of the house.  I found her in my room trying to eat my shag carpet.  (That's right -- shag.)  I want shag carpet in the basement of my dream house someday.  I figure.. okay.. so I won't be able to afford all of everything I want.. but I can downsize and get a miniature, cheaper replica of it all.  Hmm... I shall paste my future dream house description.  I just have to find it in trillian history somewhere...  lemme know what you think!! 

I haven't really decided what it would be made of.   .. cement?  lol.  stucco maybe... not bricks i don't think.  probably stucco.  or limestone! white... or off-white.  and there would be this center part... where it's circular and sticking out... a big rounded driveway coming up to it... and the other parts of the house would be just.. rectangle-ish or whatever.  normal.  it'd have LOTS of biiig windows... flat roof... different sections and all... two stories... a taaaalll ceiling in the entrance... some sort of black rock tiles in the entrance... with black glass statues of sitting dobermen on either side of the door... a biiiig slightly curved to the right (either that or like in "Gone with the Wind")... staircase... stairs made of glass... if i have handles, then they'll be black iron... yeah i think i want railings.  aaand i'll have a tall-ceilinged (lol, yay made up words!) great room... with leather couches... white, black, grey, browns.. some colorful pillows with colorful accesssories about the room.. glass-topped coffee table... modern ones decor... some modern paintings.. Dali!!!  a nice rug... modern, large fireplace with black marble surrounding it.... kitchen will be modern with silver appliances... can't decide what kind of cabinets.  I don't think i want any wood in my house, or at least very little... i'd probably have really light, expensive wood... either that or cherry wood... light grey granite countertop... modern decor again of course.. umm every room will be modern lol.  and like that.  the kitchen will be more colorful, though.  same with the dining area.  same color as the wood in the cabinets... glass or light grey granite top... umm.... bathrooms will be marble/mecca topped... brushed silver faucets... huge open stand up shower... really see-through   black toilet... I think white sink.  or maybe black.... too much black.  my bedroom will be quite similar to mine now... other will have more color... kind of an arabian look would be cool.  and egyptian... hehe yes.  i'll have a touch of those looks throughout my house... a head of nephrodite somewhere... a border of carved egyptian heiroglyphics in the hallway upstairs would be reeally cool... and I'd have a huge black grand piano downstairs... or upstairs in that circular-ish room area.  a nice music room... with a cheaper piano... black!  ooh or white... and drums, trumpet, electric keyboard, kereoke, flute... lol, etc.  lots of neat little toys .... and of course a nice garage with my maserati spyder.  my backyard has to be some lush garden.  front has to be nice, too.  and it'd be cool to have some sort of water/plant thingy inside.... and a black hot tub in the ground with water/plants around it.  or in the inside.    and i want a basement with lots of fun things... fooseball, table tennis, pool, arcade, big tv, music area, etc with some shag carpet of a bright color... like aqua or orange (as long as the orange is light).  the end! 

Okay... so I attempted to write a villanelle...  key word: attempted

Bible Lessons

"Bible school keeps you from going to Hell,

So follow the Bible to go on to Heaven,"

My father once told me 'neath the church bell.

"That boy is the devil -- this I can tell!"

So I said goodbye to my dear Kevin,

"Father says all boys are made in Hell."

"Whipping is good in Heaven, little gal,"

My father once told me when I was seven

As marks on my back began to swell.

"All women are Earthly equals to Hell,"

My father taught mother the Lord's forgivin' --

Mother was beaten till at last mother fell.

I write in the attic, my protective shell.

My mother passed on and rests in Heaven.

My father's gone too, and I wish him well.

One thing I learned from my father's tale --

I learned he's far from the land of Heaven

That he used to preach to me and yell;

My father resides in the fires of Hell.

Sub-mission

Scribble and scrawl
With this blunt lead --
Has no meaning at all,
But from inside my head.

Read, between these lines
(Nothing but words)
My message lies --
Written never to be heard.

Period end my sentence
Before I write again.
Make me feel repentance
For this incorrigible sin.

Rambling on and on:
(Methinks I've no control)
Worthless connotation,
As if that were my goal.

No way for a minor to cry.
How careless and deceiving.
I'll wipe these pages dry
Before they can receive me.

This babble, my life,
Rest on this page
Until one day that I
May flee my mother's cage.

Just a poem I wrote today.  I shall use it for my AP lit poetry project.  I like it!    Aaand I don't really have time for a post.. nothing much has happened anyway.  Yay for busy hw weekend!  Bye bye.

"Black men are the horniest creatures in the world." - wisdom of my mother.

OH and by the way.... Logy's new xanga set up SUCKS!  Thatz right.

Yay harmonica!  I just bought one for like... $5 at Crackerbarrel.  Hehe.  It's a Hohner, but yeah.. really cheap.  I can't bend any of the notes.  And the second to last hole on each end doesn't draw in air very well.  It makes this rattling sound lol...  oh well.  It's fun!  I've got some songs down, man.  Mary Had A Little Lamb, Home On The Range, Amazing Grace, Star-Spangled Banner, Farijaque or whatever lol.  I think that's French, too.. *sigh* my bad.  Aaand this other song.. that i can't identify.  It's on "Fantasia".. I just played part of it.  I love that movie.  Haven't seen it in years.  But yeah, enough about my little .... Herby.  Yes.  Herby the Harmonica.

I haven't done a lick of hw.  Hmm.  That's probably not a good thing.  I'm going to be swamped tomorrow.  Esp. with math.  Mm... lol... maybe I'll actually work in math tomorrow instead of talk.  .... naaaah.   

I think my mono relapse is getting worse.  That's just awesome.  Still tired all the time.. only now I'm getting a sore throat.  I found a white patch on the back of my throat this morning.  Eeeeh.... *sigh*....  lymph nodes aren't swollen yet.  God my back hurts though.  I have this huuuge knot on the side of my lower back.  Huuuuge!  I need a harsh backrub really f-ing badly.  I keep trying to fix it myself, but I make myself yelp in pain lol... bleh.

"Honey bunches of oats!" - Nathan    

OOH I just finished my ap gov research paper a while ago.  100% done, baby.  Thatz right biatch.  Wow it's after 2am already.  Waaah I have so much other hw.  And chores.  Sigh.  Well, I seriously did get the most important thing done.  Next, finish Hamlet.  Et puis, etude pour mon examen de mathematique.  .... okay no idea why I just switched to writing in french lol.  I'm losing it!  I have to go to bed.  Mmm sleep.  I had a dream I was em... intimate with a good guy friend of mine.  It was.. quite.. odd.  ...  bye!

"Give me liberty or give me death!" - the title of my research paper.  (make secondhand smoke illegal)    I know, I know.  I rule.  *bows*  "bows" is such an odd word.  bows... bows bows...

Just got back from seeing "Munich" with Brit.  (nope, didn't go to morp).  It was... long!  lol... eh.  Good movie I suppose.  I think I was too tired to enjoy it.  I literally fell asleep for a few minutes in the middle of the movie, lol.  Whoooops.  There was this old man a few seats across from us... wow... everytime someone would get blown up, he cracked up laughing!!!  Haha, Brit and I were freaking out lol.  We decided it must be John's father.  But yeah... that was just a little creepy lol.  Afterward, we had to wait around for Brit's parents to get done watching the Dick and Jane movie so they could take me home.  We ended up wasting 50 cents on that mechanical fortune-telling thing, lol.  Brit's fortune is to "stay in bed" hehe.  You could always take that both ways.  At one point, Brit had to pee, so I just waited at the sink area for her.. and discovered something!  .... I have a grey hair!  I plucked it.  It's... seriously... pigment-less lol.  White/grey whatever you want to call it.  Shiny and... yep!  Thaaaat's depressing.  17 and I have my first grey hair.  -_-  I think I'm just a wee bit stressed, lol, eh?  OH and I have more wonderful news.  I went to the doctor after school today because my stomach won't stop hurting and I throw up everything I try to eat now.  And guess what??  I have an ulcer!!  Sigh...  lol... couldn't get much better than that.  So now Brit is yelling at me to eat more and sleep more.  I think the last time I actually ate a meal was... last Saturday.  Yeah.  Weeeelp, lol... that sucks.  I just can't keep anything down.  My stomach is really sensitive.  Bleh.

"Stop chasing the mice inside your skull." - Munich